just an attempt

i know how strong i am,
i know my weakness,
i am running in circles,
hoping that you'll see me, i am bleeding,
hoping that you'll hear me, i am crying,

but every time you make a move,
i run away,
am i afraid of myself,
or i don't wanna you see me broken,
or i don't trust you'll be with me,

still i am holding on,
cause i know a day will come,
when i will laugh again,
where ever you are.
i know n i believe that
time will beat itself.

i go for help of love,
but love stab me back,
leave me stoned and stunned,
so i thought of suicide and went for it,

i thought i am getting closer to death,
but death just dodge me out,
i thought death will end my life,
but instead it kill my mind,
my sleep, my peace, my memories, my future.