I am stuck in a brawl,
i have become a boxing ring myself,
i am the only mute spectator,
of struggle between my soul and body.
even when i bleed, my pain hides,
even when my tears flow, my pain hides.
i wished just love,
but i always got to get fuck,
its not my fault to have a bigger dick n smaller heart.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
time will beat itself
It's true. if you are a patient man sometimes you can just sit and see things pass through. Even if you will not make any effort, time will change itself cause this is nature.
then why keep trying hard so hard?
it is the journey, effort from which we love, it is the process we enjoy, it is the struggle and wait which make our memories.
Happy times are bound to come, but only who work hard, are able to identify and enjoy them.
then why keep trying hard so hard?
it is the journey, effort from which we love, it is the process we enjoy, it is the struggle and wait which make our memories.
Happy times are bound to come, but only who work hard, are able to identify and enjoy them.
just an attempt
i know how strong i am,
i know my weakness,
i am running in circles,
hoping that you'll see me, i am bleeding,
hoping that you'll hear me, i am crying,
but every time you make a move,
i run away,
am i afraid of myself,
or i don't wanna you see me broken,
or i don't trust you'll be with me,
still i am holding on,
cause i know a day will come,
when i will laugh again,
where ever you are.
i know n i believe that
time will beat itself.
i go for help of love,
but love stab me back,
leave me stoned and stunned,
so i thought of suicide and went for it,
i thought i am getting closer to death,
but death just dodge me out,
i thought death will end my life,
but instead it kill my mind,
my sleep, my peace, my memories, my future.
i know my weakness,
i am running in circles,
hoping that you'll see me, i am bleeding,
hoping that you'll hear me, i am crying,
but every time you make a move,
i run away,
am i afraid of myself,
or i don't wanna you see me broken,
or i don't trust you'll be with me,
still i am holding on,
cause i know a day will come,
when i will laugh again,
where ever you are.
i know n i believe that
time will beat itself.
i go for help of love,
but love stab me back,
leave me stoned and stunned,
so i thought of suicide and went for it,
i thought i am getting closer to death,
but death just dodge me out,
i thought death will end my life,
but instead it kill my mind,
my sleep, my peace, my memories, my future.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Pursuit of happiness
it's not about movie."Life,Liberty, and the pursuit of happiness " is one of the most famous phrases in the United States Declaration of Independence. These three aspects are listed among the "inalienable rights" of man.
i, however, am never able to understand it. why should strive for happiness, should it not come to you naturally. why you should make a attempt to enjoy something. Why to pretend your whole life?Live, laugh and love........live when you feel like, as you feel living; laugh, when it just come to you, no use of faking laugh; love you when you really mean it.
Friday, July 18, 2008
My lines
As you move on in life you come across a lot of people,
they are your real experiences, your teacher,
your life moments, your treasure,
As time passes,
Some you remember, Some you want to forget,
Some you love, Some you want to love
with some you enjoy, with some you want to enjoy,
some you miss, some you want to be with
but you keep on moving on, letting new ones tumble your life,
once in a while memories of some flashes to your mind,
the one brings smile to your face,may in a moment make you sad,
still they give you reason, hope and strength to carry on....
they are your real experiences, your teacher,
your life moments, your treasure,
As time passes,
Some you remember, Some you want to forget,
Some you love, Some you want to love
with some you enjoy, with some you want to enjoy,
some you miss, some you want to be with
but you keep on moving on, letting new ones tumble your life,
once in a while memories of some flashes to your mind,
the one brings smile to your face,may in a moment make you sad,
still they give you reason, hope and strength to carry on....
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Learning is a spontaneous process
It may sound strange after all we all strive for learning our whole life. You may feel cheated when you learn whole hard work you have put to learn wasn't necessary, wisdom is bound to come to you.
You must have listened that 'Life itself is a great teacher' than why we spend a large part of our life in school and college learning. Society has become so complicated which requires you 20 or more years of learning just to survive in it. After that you start your actually life but in reality you pass your rest of life in just abiding by rules of society taught over a period.
Still we go to school cause we wish to learn what we want to know. Not random lessons which life teach us though these random lessons make us what we are. Without knowledge of history it's hard to move further so now we have to spend 30- 40% of our life just learning.
We struggle our whole life for fame, money and secure future. Actually, we used to have this all. In some of villages people still enjoy these. Imagine a small community - you have fame since all people know each other. Future is more or less secure since you always have your father profession to fall back on.
Globalization has just made our path longer; may be it's true that real joy lies in journey not destination. Thats why Globalization has flourished according to nature's law survival of fittest
You must have listened that 'Life itself is a great teacher' than why we spend a large part of our life in school and college learning. Society has become so complicated which requires you 20 or more years of learning just to survive in it. After that you start your actually life but in reality you pass your rest of life in just abiding by rules of society taught over a period.
Still we go to school cause we wish to learn what we want to know. Not random lessons which life teach us though these random lessons make us what we are. Without knowledge of history it's hard to move further so now we have to spend 30- 40% of our life just learning.
We struggle our whole life for fame, money and secure future. Actually, we used to have this all. In some of villages people still enjoy these. Imagine a small community - you have fame since all people know each other. Future is more or less secure since you always have your father profession to fall back on.
Globalization has just made our path longer; may be it's true that real joy lies in journey not destination. Thats why Globalization has flourished according to nature's law survival of fittest
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
3 words...
No these 3 words are not what you may think, I love you, no what i am talking are more stronger, realistic words.
'I don't know' , these are the words i am talking about.
You can only see what your mind paints to you not your eyes. Perception is your only window of receiving any information from outside world. Or should i say you receive data from your senses and than you perceive with you mind to process data in information which you may understand.Therefore, in reality you don't know anything you only know what your mind cooks for you.
The problem starts when we become over confident and start acting as we know all and are in full control of situation. But from uncertainty principle(by Heisenberg), the truth is that we can't have full knowledge so we can't predict or have full control of situation.
I am not saying to underestimate your self what i am suggesting is just not to dispel any idea, never think someone dumb it is just that he has a different perception than you.
Always remember, When you think someone is dumb, you are sharing similar thoughts with him.
No one is fool, no one is dumb.
'I don't know' , these are the words i am talking about.
You can only see what your mind paints to you not your eyes. Perception is your only window of receiving any information from outside world. Or should i say you receive data from your senses and than you perceive with you mind to process data in information which you may understand.Therefore, in reality you don't know anything you only know what your mind cooks for you.
The problem starts when we become over confident and start acting as we know all and are in full control of situation. But from uncertainty principle(by Heisenberg), the truth is that we can't have full knowledge so we can't predict or have full control of situation.
I am not saying to underestimate your self what i am suggesting is just not to dispel any idea, never think someone dumb it is just that he has a different perception than you.
Always remember, When you think someone is dumb, you are sharing similar thoughts with him.
No one is fool, no one is dumb.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
LOVE IS EVIL
I am not against it. You may think that i am a heartsick, heartburn person who is just getting his frustration out by blaming all on it.
But it is not that. Let me ask you a Question. Did you ever favored you loved one's? Did you ever favored you loved one's at expense of others? Now you may say, yes, cause i love him. But see here lies the real problem love forced us to be unfair, unethical sometimes, to others, to see our loved ones happy.
Love, deviate us from treating with equality and uniformity all human beings. It is like relativity whenever you love someone you are at same time in hate with someone. You love someone more then other, in turn you may become unfair to latter.
Why can't we love all? I mean it would be really nice to walk on streets knowing that any human being i see is not going to hurt me, in fact i think most people like to help others. It is just that sometimes we don't ask for help.
May be we have been too cynical. A common misconception is that we may think that only some of our friends loved us and we are obliged to them only but may be we haven't given others a chance. All we have to believe that all human beings are good at heart and should start seeing them with equal love, respect and admiration.
The only solution or way i can think, though it may sound boring or hypothetical, but at least we can apply this to every new person we meet, that we should give every person some time before forming an opinion about him.
Actually, i am now confused myself this is not what i intended to write when i started this post. so i am just signing off for now.
But it is not that. Let me ask you a Question. Did you ever favored you loved one's? Did you ever favored you loved one's at expense of others? Now you may say, yes, cause i love him. But see here lies the real problem love forced us to be unfair, unethical sometimes, to others, to see our loved ones happy.
Love, deviate us from treating with equality and uniformity all human beings. It is like relativity whenever you love someone you are at same time in hate with someone. You love someone more then other, in turn you may become unfair to latter.
Why can't we love all? I mean it would be really nice to walk on streets knowing that any human being i see is not going to hurt me, in fact i think most people like to help others. It is just that sometimes we don't ask for help.
May be we have been too cynical. A common misconception is that we may think that only some of our friends loved us and we are obliged to them only but may be we haven't given others a chance. All we have to believe that all human beings are good at heart and should start seeing them with equal love, respect and admiration.
The only solution or way i can think, though it may sound boring or hypothetical, but at least we can apply this to every new person we meet, that we should give every person some time before forming an opinion about him.
Actually, i am now confused myself this is not what i intended to write when i started this post. so i am just signing off for now.
P.S: Love of Surpnakha for Laxman laid the foundation for great battle of Ramayan.
Love of Ravan for Sita leeds to destruction of Lanka.
The Catcher in the Rye..
I can't understand why the book was titled this but it is always difficult to understand most of titles. Reading a book is totally different from understanding the author's say. Especially in this book a really don't like it much though it was alright. Actually i see this book in list of all time top 100 Bestsellers. So i am not sure whether it was a crap.
Actually, what i wanna write is about this author, J.D Salinger, I mean he seems so confused that i feel myself in his shoes. This is a story about a 16 year old boy, how he is axed from school and he just run away from there trying to figure what to do. Whole story makes you feel how he had to live in this all evil and selfish world and he wasn't ready to do that.
Language and expression used are in close consensus with a teenager thinking. All in all, it is a very well told story. It's just that it just goes on and in the end you may feel like cheated cause no mystery, no twist, no turns, it just ends gracefully.
Truth is i really liked book when i was reading it's just that it finishes so smoothly that i felt like left in between. what is shown in whole book is a most common fact which many of us may not understand-
We love and hate same person, what matters is what we see most.
We love our children but how we feel like killing them when they throw a tantrum.
We may hate are roommates but we miss them afterwards.
We hate our parents not allowing us for late night outs, and when miles away from them we wish to be at home.
Actually, what i wanna write is about this author, J.D Salinger, I mean he seems so confused that i feel myself in his shoes. This is a story about a 16 year old boy, how he is axed from school and he just run away from there trying to figure what to do. Whole story makes you feel how he had to live in this all evil and selfish world and he wasn't ready to do that.
Language and expression used are in close consensus with a teenager thinking. All in all, it is a very well told story. It's just that it just goes on and in the end you may feel like cheated cause no mystery, no twist, no turns, it just ends gracefully.
Truth is i really liked book when i was reading it's just that it finishes so smoothly that i felt like left in between. what is shown in whole book is a most common fact which many of us may not understand-
We love and hate same person, what matters is what we see most.
We love our children but how we feel like killing them when they throw a tantrum.
We may hate are roommates but we miss them afterwards.
We hate our parents not allowing us for late night outs, and when miles away from them we wish to be at home.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Bluffed
"Trust is like virginity someone fuck you and you lose it for ever."
i really like this one the moment i read it, maybe because i have had experienced it. I have being fucked couple of times. you may think how dumb i am to get fooled again but actually it is the risk i willingly take out of my curiosity or may be desperation.
What happened actually that both the time my day just started on a wrong note and i was bluffed quite early in day, sometime by the noon. After that whole day i was too cynical and skeptical about every thing, i wasn't able to believe any thing it seems like everyone is trying to fool me, everything seemed fake. It looks like anything is possible and i started thinking worst possibility in every thing.
But time is the most effective pain killer i have experienced. Loss of memory also has it's benefits actually you can't forget anything but it's just that such experiences becomes mere bad memories(also a learning experience which may safeguard you in future) and these memories don't affect your life any more. So ultimately you keep going on and enjoying and bad luck if you keep on learning.
Also these things may make you laugh after sometime. And "Never forget something which bring smile to you even for a second."
i really like this one the moment i read it, maybe because i have had experienced it. I have being fucked couple of times. you may think how dumb i am to get fooled again but actually it is the risk i willingly take out of my curiosity or may be desperation.
What happened actually that both the time my day just started on a wrong note and i was bluffed quite early in day, sometime by the noon. After that whole day i was too cynical and skeptical about every thing, i wasn't able to believe any thing it seems like everyone is trying to fool me, everything seemed fake. It looks like anything is possible and i started thinking worst possibility in every thing.
But time is the most effective pain killer i have experienced. Loss of memory also has it's benefits actually you can't forget anything but it's just that such experiences becomes mere bad memories(also a learning experience which may safeguard you in future) and these memories don't affect your life any more. So ultimately you keep going on and enjoying and bad luck if you keep on learning.
Also these things may make you laugh after sometime. And "Never forget something which bring smile to you even for a second."
take off !!!
I don't like the drugs, but the drugs like me,
I don't like this shit, but i am living in it,
I don't like to fuck, but i was forced to it,
I don't believe in love, but i am in love with hell.
Some of you must have figured out by now that above lines were inspired from the Song 'I don't like the drugs, but the drugs like me' and if you have listened Marlyn Manson or any such sadist, rebelling music for some time than you can easily make out what lead to others lines. Sometimes though such lyrics are really confidence busters and mood changer.
believe me yelling out is quiet refreshing.
I don't like this shit, but i am living in it,
I don't like to fuck, but i was forced to it,
I don't believe in love, but i am in love with hell.
Some of you must have figured out by now that above lines were inspired from the Song 'I don't like the drugs, but the drugs like me' and if you have listened Marlyn Manson or any such sadist, rebelling music for some time than you can easily make out what lead to others lines. Sometimes though such lyrics are really confidence busters and mood changer.
believe me yelling out is quiet refreshing.
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