Confidence vs innocence

Confidence, should be or not. Generally, people say that confidence is must for success. I agree. It is easy to find parents encouraging their children that be confident, friends putting hand on shoulder that be confident.

OK. Be confident is fine. But then question is why should i be confident?

Just cause my friends say so. NO

I haven't put in much effort but i think i am smarter than others. NO

I prepared. YES

I believe i can cause i understand what to be done and how to be done. YES

So line is not between confidence or over confidence. It depends on source of confidence.

Instead of confidence innocence i think is better way to approach anything.

SHITLIST

I liked this title in first look and thought that i can easily write something with this title. Then as usual, time i put my fingers on keyboard my mind stuck, not in thoughts but something come between my thoughts and words.

This gap sometimes seems just a crack still it remains a unconquered one. Sometimes when words come very slowly, like water flowing upwards on floor with wind, and faith make them fall down in a meaningful(for some people) sentence the feeling i get is amazing it feels like i can run and finally reach somewhere.

This again get me thinking and fear creeps in uninvited, what is hidden in the end, what if i falter in between. How that unseen entity is pulling me from my current ties, from my current possessions, from this, from this moment which is mine, this moment which i can't hold on, which if not lived will pass on without being used, which will be my loss.

Why to lose something which you can't have again for something which you might have?

P.S: This habit of falling in questions in the end.

disconnect

I remember my teacher in school used to say (not to me) sometimes that you are physically present here but your mind is not in the class. I couldn't used to understand that time what she means. I always thought that our mind is here only it is just that we are not able to understand sometimes.

Now, i can perfectly understand the meaning of those words cause no matter what i am doing and how hard i try, i just can't keep my mind wherever i am. Its not that i am always thinking about something or someone(most of times) but i am always thinking of something not connected with my present surroundings.

This is good or bad. I think it is bad cause i am not able to concentrate on my work. I want to read but i just can't concentrate and most of reading is kind of passive reading. I doubt if whatever i read really goes in my mind and even a fleck of it remains there.

Though some people say this is your creativity, your power to dream.

I don't know its good or bad, the fact is that this is happening. Sometimes when i know what distant thoughts i am having will or can become reality i enjoy them. Sometimes when i know that it may not get full fill it hurts me. I don't want to keep on living like this, i don't know the medicine also.

Only time, which certainly bring change with it, is my only hope.

Trickle Effect

Advocates of Capitalism argue that trickle effect will ultimately benefit whole society and end result is inclusiveness. As far as creation of an elite class and hierarchy in society is concerned it is natural to have distinctions according to ones capability and hard work.

Above argument looks good to me. This is why may be capitalism has beat socialism hands-down in today's world.

Still the question remains, whether this is the ground reality. As far as surveys goes there are millions of people living below poverty line, and millions of children are hungry leave talks about education and health facilities.

The problem in whole argument is that no where it has talked about speed, spread and volume of that trickle effect. Right now it doesn't seems like trickle effect, it more so looks like leakage due to unmanageable excess one part of society (so called elite) has.

If a whole generation of a family tree is rooted out waiting for trickle water there is problem of speed. If state can easily be divided into 10-15 groups of tier-I,tire-II cities there is a problem of spread. If even after having fruits of trickle effect continuously for considerable time people keep on flocking it there is a problem of volume.

Once upon a time there was a tortoise and a fish. They both were in love with each other. Then came a rabbit, like any another love story, and tried to woo the fish.

Rabbit then challenge tortoise for a race and winner was decided to be the lover of fish. As everyone must have listen about this race. Rabbit won it.

Rabbit was given the hand(or fin) of fish. But here the love started its magic. Rabbit take a plunge in sea to meet the fish, he couldn't swim and died.

Tortoise married the fish and lived happily ever after.